The Art Of Self-Mind Psychoing

its 2 in the morning, almost 3. im still not in bed. currently listening to My American Beauty by PlainSunset. i seriously have nothing to look forward to nowadays. just hoping people will call to hang out or do something.

i've been stepping up on my prayers recently. initially, it would be like 'oh dear, i forgot.' but now its a better rate. im amazed at the people who dont really put their mind to not praying. let alone drinking beer and other wrong stuff. or maybe its just that i have no life and i try to find something out of praying. but nonetheless i still have my share of sins. trying to cut down on them.

its a dull life, yo. im going to school in a month. ITE bishan. they keep saying that its not a bad thing to go to an ITE, but it isnt what i had planned. especially if its accounting. math..... argh. but i try hard and look on the positives. prospect wise i've got a future ahead if i put my all. yeah, my appeal for Sport Management at Simei didnt seem to muster up a reply. syahidah got that course though, they said. they even gave this crazy idea of getting me to swap courses with, cause she too wanted accounting. i dont think thats possible albeit i half-hope that i can. people around me also stressed that they're plenty of girls in Bishan. i dont take it as something to look at even if they take it as a lighter note on the 'mishap'. and i also have to travel soooo far from my place. and there is no direct bus from here at all. really sucks. but i have to work hard. close my eyes and work my way through. its a really crucial time for me. after that, if i land on a poly i may balance my time with retaking O's. after im old and soggy, im gonna retake my O's. brilliant.

so... yeah. im gonna spend my night sitting around and listen to songs. good night.