The Art Of Self-Mind Psychoing

the unhealthy thing, i sleep at 2 or 3. so when its in the afternoon, when everyone is up and lively, im still sleepy. and when its midnight, i'm up doing nothing and wasting my time but not sleeping cause i cant. lethargic.....

i need soccer. but i cracked my toe nail and its vulnerable. i dont want it to be the reason i cant play soccer, so when i do im gonna wrap it with lots of plaster. i dont care who i play with, i just want to. 3 months, not being on the court or the field. its a desire now.

i must say im fairly or below average in everything i do. studies, drumming, football, drawing, painting, whatever. theres always someone better than me and theres always someone worse than me. i dont find it a problem, but i wanna go up the ladder.

and i have no idea why im saying all this.