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SING SONG: PLAINSUNSET- REGINA

so nothing is new. everytime i feel like putting up a post i get cut off by my laziness or the dismal connection i have.

in the line of days i have not been blogging, it came to my realisation of a certain addiction. there are many things people get addicted to, and from there it can get contagious towards affecting the different types of addiction and the people around you.

there are different addictions, naturally bad being an addiction. we see smoking, drinking, drugs, sex, gambling and stuff along that line. i feel that i have acquired a new addiction, and being the person i am, it feels unexpected.

now, i'm not much of a spendthrift and neither am i good in saving, but it has accumulated to wanting more and more. from basic need, to a target, elaborated to a simple want and finally a desire. that is shopping addiction i guess. i find myself withdrawing money unnecessarily of late, but the empty feeling is layered by my purchase, somewhat. closing shop now would be a good idea, but i still have eyes for 3 more items, just luring, seducing and reeling me into the resort of owning it.

like i say, money for me just to smell its aroma, briefly.

it has come to me that some people who like/love another person of the same gender can be due to time together and eventually constructing a strong bond together. that was how the 2 guys in 'Brokeback Mountain' fell in love with each other. this is not the work of 'unique ' attraction or a genetical indifference. this is real love of boundless reach. as wrong as it may seem, it is more beautiful than the sad, love=hate stories a failed relationship defines love.

this ship is taking me far away,
far away from my memories,
of the people who care
if i live or die;