The Art Of Self-Mind Psychoing

me and some few have came to terms that ITE life is pretty dull and routinous. wake up (if you do get sleep), long journey to school, lessons, long journey back home and the rest of it all is wasted. life feels wasted right now. i, if i may represent some others, do not feel the pressure of the exams that are coming soon. the feel of the need to study is there, but books seem redundant to our lives and the long hours in school do make it seem bleak, these times. and it is only the second day from the start of the term. there is no reply to rock climbing, not more from the teachers' assistance. i need the cca, or with this help, i may just give up. we amongst ourselves wished for a change of class or a miraculous spark of something fresh; something to give a little geist in our little pathetic lives. is this the life we deserve? if not, is this the life i deserve? to look through everything, i'd say yes than rather.

health has been a niggling toyol biting on your toes as well. wind-stuffed and chills rotate by shifts in my stomach, giving the delightful comfort. it is as though what is inside is unsure of where to exit. the thing in your body is fickle; just as annoying as a fickle-minded friend can be. the strained back has risen again and reigned to be the biggest irritant throughout the years. even at rest it overwhelms whatever comfort the bed may offer.

speaking of bed, meet Insomnia, my girlfriend to entertain my nights. she doesnt make a good girlfriend though. and it has only been two nights. and i feel like dumping her. how i miss those little slices of death, much contrary to Freddy Krueger's victims.

while i enable the time to entertain this avenue of expression, it is out of mere boredom and the lack of spark to rip the pages.
my happy-o-meter has a bit of malfunction at the moment. the reason may be, mystical, confidential or invalid. so should you be reading this and too feel this emotion, be happy. for me.

i am sorry for not being able to attend tomorrow's movie outing. i love my Ffour very much and it would seem like the best time to get the complete set of heroes. but a little happening at home and exams' invasion to be anticipated has sniffed off my wish to be with You. i need this sacrifice. i promise a day with You before the move and hopefully after the exams. i hope you won't cancel the outing, its just and will be a liveable day without me. love you.

so i'm gonna slit my wrists, thighs, throat, nut sack and eyes.
good night. stay up well.