mesmerizing and heartwarming

what can i say about her? the day i saw her, it felt special. Shining Diamond, that was special. 3 days with her and it made it all happen. but she was scared the first time she saw me. (:

yep, a smile. thats what she can make me do when she does too. well, she doesnt have to, it'll just appear. as good as baby magic. we stayed up the days and nights, try hard to stay awake. did everything together in the camp. we did our performance act together, ate together, stayed up together, stuck together and did anything we could together. we enjoyed ourselves and each other. had good fun and laughs.it felt remorseful and sad that we were gonna part after the end of the camp. but i was determined to meet her again. and let that smile captivate me again. and again. and again.

we started hanging out, stayed in contact and had fun with all our friends. the cross made out of our names was the sign for me. 'do you want it to happen?' that set us to our journey together. we called and went out a few times. it wasnt much, but i cherished all the time that i could.

but it started to fade. she went back to KL. and her friend told me about her going with another guy. yeah, it ripped. as all humans, i was just another one with emotions. she was the one to let me feel happiness, joy, warmth love and eventually (and unfortunately) hate at its current fullest.

i am not one to cling on emotions, not even hate to form grudges. so i just kept away. it was until i met her at bedok interchange. (see past few posts on dec 2007) yeah it was funny how she reacted. but it was good to know she's alive. (?) from then on we've been giving messages to each other. talking online when she could.

she said 'i'm sorry for being such a bitch.'
i said 'nah, i'm way over that. if i cant be the great boyfriend, the least i'll be is a great friend.'
'its not you, its me. i'm just not ready.'

we both agreed that our lines sounded like they were picked up lines. hahaha.

i used to think people are evil just like that. used to think of nonsensical stuff of her. but all that changed with an apology. i hope to understand this change and make greater bonds.

her smile, her face. almost angelic. and i was her angel from her nightmare.hmph. haha mesmerizing and heartwarming. (: