The Art Of Self-Mind Psychoing

1 in the morning and i'm awake like its 1 in the afternoon. this is just wrong! i've been doing stuff like push ups, sit ups, squats and muay-thai kicks to tire me out but they are not working. i think i'm gonna start feeling tired at 3. oh man, this really sucks. okay, uhm... what to blog about. me, sam, ezzat and julie are supposed to go out tomorrow, well officially today. to where, i have no bloody idea. well at least i'm out, better being at home all day..... which was exactly what i did just now. and i have no money at all. not even my ez-link card. i feel so pathetic (that i am), guys NEED to have money with them. its an essential to be a guy (pardon previous posts). you get what i mean. when you need to be a hero when it requires money, and it always is the situation where you need money, you dont have it! that ain't hero. not at all. my pay is coming on the 22nd. and i need a new job, please God throw me money or a job at the very least. consider dropping the money first. lots of it. and i swear i havent had breakfast, an official breakfast in the right timing, since the last 2 months. thats why i've been stuffing myself late at night. knowing me, i cant go on a day without 3 meals at the least. there were days where i did not eat at all. im living such an unhealthy life now. i need to get off my ass, im forming a tummy (a hairy one) being a potato couch and stoning in front of the computer. and i thought this would kill time. its killing me! 30 freaking minutes... i havent had any deep messages on the blog of late. maybe my brain is too sunken from sinking on my bed too much. damn, this sucks. well at least life is good. i can laugh and be happy when some others cant. its all good. except for sleeping late and no breakfast and being bored as a fulltime hobby. its all good.

i finally had the date of valentines' day registered in my brain. i had no idea before that it was 14th February. well its cause i've never celebrated valentines' day. interact clubs used to hold booths selling stuff in school, but i never really paid attention to the date or the occasion, just be the undying passionate for Interact Club. i am also unsure of the meaning and significance of the date. im not trying to be 'oh i'm omar, im so cool cause i dont celebrate valentines day' or 'oh im omar, im so negative and an emo pussy cause i dont celebrate valentines' day', i really dont know. my idea of it is everyone tries their luck at getting on a date. get their date roses, chocolates, candlelight dinner and whatever. some even get married cause its a cool date to get married. some people who have relationships go out of that bond for that day and get someone else to be their date. how cool is that?! no, actually thats screwed up. i've never had a valentines' date before. im not sad about it neither am i hoping for one. it does not prove an insignificant date, i just dont commemorate it like how i dont for easter or whatever. hmm... maybe thats why the past 2 1/2 relationship sucked. hahaha!

shahidah is at belgium. i hope she's safe and having fun there. i miss her. she was pretty anxious and worried to go there as she heard it isnt so safe there. she even asked me if i had any tips on precautional measures before she left. but im sure she's alright there. she's with her cousins and some adults. i've been praying for her. she did say hi online, but i wasnt around. i dont know when she will be back, but im looking forward to it. hope she comes back safe.

me afan and syafiq had some guy talk at macdonalds one day. when i mentioned to mandy about it she went 'what did you talk about, boobs?'

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we dont always talk about it OKAY. i admit its become stereotyped when it comes to a group of guys talking. we are nice people, and i do feel a tad embarrassed when it comes to this kinda things. but awkwardly in this situation, we did. err..... and afan was the one who asked me that. it was weird for HIM to ask too cause he has never been the type. at least he was looking for a frank and sensible voice in me. that wasnt the only thing we talked about of course. other stuff like games, soccer, music, friends and more. i wonder what girls talk about. even as i have so many annoying time with girls mostly, the most i can sum up of them talking are guys, bitchy stuff, celebrities and all. (girls dont come raining on me if i misconveyed.) nonetheless, its always fun when both girl and guy friend chat and talk rubbish, being open and talking sense when it fits. sometimes i just be quite and look at whats in front of me. my friends laughing together, sometimes crying till their stomachs cracked, consoling each other and i just cant help but smile. it makes you feel life is good. i daresay it is then. :)